i look at that and think to myself, even only 2 years of prison time deserves more space. what was going on in those years? that intrigues me about reading history. lapsed years are indicated by a few words.
we've lived here for almost 3 months. sometimes i feel i need to justify that we are not starting some sort of ministry yet or giving more at established ministries. and you know, maybe nobody puts that expectation on us, but i have.
somehow my heart has begun to really embrace what we are called to at this season. i want to trust in God's timing, not in my expectations or what i think others are expecting of me. i want to embrace this deep and meaningful work that God is indeed doing in me. i want to rejoice and enjoy the changes i watch in brad daily.
i want to embrace the passage of time in our lives when someone else would look in and maybe record little in our biography, but we would know. because we experience the calling to the Word. we see the passions stirring in us. we encounter the lesson that only God can suffice in today's need. we learn the value in the process of patiently cultivating relationships.
we dream often about reaching out to our world in ways we haven't yet. but it seems to be God's desire for us to wait and grow in us patience, hunger for Him, dependence on Him.
and that is deep, meaningful, important work that i don't want to rush through for the sake of answering my own or others' expectations. that would be idolatry.
my soul, wait silently for God alone,
for my expectation is from Him.