i walk away with mixed emotions. i walk away saying to God, "here. here's all of our money. we still have no answers. and i still have to trust You."
and i do. ultimately, the other choice of not trusting Him is not only completely despairing, but absolutely wrong. and i choose Him.
so i recenter my emotions... so as to not get hope from the light spring drizzle mingled with sunshine, but from the Rain-maker Himself, the Sun-birther.
i would have lost heart, unless i had believed that i would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. psalm 27:13