so, what do you do with a good day?
with his symptoms at bay and energy up, feelings of guilt chase me around as i enjoy a "normal" day.
guilty feelings for questioning God, guilty feelings for frustrations past as i lived as a single parent at times, guilty feelings for not knowing better.
why must i feel bad for enjoying working around the house with my husband? i relished watching him get up and feel like working. not for "what" he was doing, but that we were doing life together... what i viewed as "normal" life. how good it felt. how wonderful to feel it.
the emotional roller coaster of disease is brutal and unforgiving. it knows no mercy.
thankfully, God does.
and as He invites me into His presence, His mercy wraps me up and whispers, "enjoy."
because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. lamentations 3:22
with his symptoms at bay and energy up, feelings of guilt chase me around as i enjoy a "normal" day.
guilty feelings for questioning God, guilty feelings for frustrations past as i lived as a single parent at times, guilty feelings for not knowing better.
why must i feel bad for enjoying working around the house with my husband? i relished watching him get up and feel like working. not for "what" he was doing, but that we were doing life together... what i viewed as "normal" life. how good it felt. how wonderful to feel it.
the emotional roller coaster of disease is brutal and unforgiving. it knows no mercy.
thankfully, God does.
and as He invites me into His presence, His mercy wraps me up and whispers, "enjoy."
because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. lamentations 3:22
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