beginnings

it's a funny thing about beginnings.  we're often excited about the start of something.  i can be excited about a shopping trip until we're a couple hours into it, and i am out of money and energy.  i was excited to take my daughter home from the hospital and start really being a "mom" until i understood just how little sleep was in store for me.  now, i am happily a mother... just a tired one.  the naive idea of my husband and i snuggled in on the couch for a movie with our sleeping babe nearby is long gone.  we like to snuggle... just as we drift to sleep... and the earlier the better, if you please.
and so my fear is that this is something i will not keep up, yet desperately need.  because i am excited about it.  so, watch out.  it may be nothing.