the temptation of early morning entertainment of FB, email, TV shows and news headlines has been eliminated by the placement of our computer. i LOVE that because i enjoy entertaining myself (uninterrupted while munchkin sleeps) but tend to overindulge.
it's small. we got rid of lots of stuff so we could fit in this space and not rent a storage unit. i LOVE that because i always thought i could get by on less, and now i know i can.
and yet, to be perfectly honest, there's a temptation to take my eyes off Jesus and compare myself to cultural norms. there is a pull inside of me to give amia certain things, portray myself in a certain way, relate to my friends in a particular habit.
i have the shameful ability to attempt to honor myself instead my Lord. it's sneaky - often completely indiscernible to me. i miss the skewed motivation in my heart. my head convinces me that all is well. it's the dilemma of those infamous 18 inches.
moving knowledge from my head into my heart is assuredly astronomically above my natural ability. that is supernatural work for my supernatural God. as i struggle in the discipline of seeking Him in His Word, i find the miracle of my heart creeping towards Him.
whom i look at (Jesus) from which position (head or heart) matters.
God, please make these 18 inches on the short side, i just want more of You.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and who is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1,2